This post is in memory of my mum... it is something personal but I some how also feel the urge to share with the universe and just send the message out there... Hopefully mum'll feel it.. where ever she is...
On the morning of 6 Nov, my beloved mummy passed away after 2 years of battling with colon cancer. She passed away peacefully and we were all by her bedside. It was expected but also unexpected at the same time... The Saturday before, the nurse told us it could be days or a couple of weeks tops.. then on 6th, the nurse said it could be that night or even the next few days. It was so quick.. didn't even get to think.. then *bang*
But like what mum said no regrets. We spent heaps of time with her, doing things we haven't done, taken her to places... At least we have lots of fond memories to treasure forever.. good thing I love taking photos too!!!!
It's so sad... It was nice to feel all the love and support from our friends and family. Our house was like a florist within 2 days. We never knew we knew so many people!!! Our rellies (mum's siblings.. bar from a couple) from Taiwan flew in and it was soo nice to have them around. It was almost like a form of distraction.. and also basking in the sea of love really helped with the healing process. We know that we are not alone, our uncles and aunties are still there... Uncles + Aunties who share similar laughs and spirit as mum. It was really comforting...
The funeral was beautiful. Peaceful. Serene. Just the way how mum wanted it. I think it's also going to be the way how I want my funeral to be.... hmm! Remember that guys! =P I think planning the funeral the way it was made it a lot easier on us as well. We had ample time to do other things too.. just taking it easy. Not rush rush... that also gave us time to reflect and deal with our emotions. The normal Taiwan way would probably be a lot of chanting and folding paper lotus and cooking lots. Wouldn't even have the time to feel the loss and the sadness...
Oppa was assigned the task of taking photos on the day. You did a great job! There were many great photos.. but too many of us crying.. *sigh* But you did a great job nonetheless... especially under that circumstance!
During this VERY sad time, it was great to have Jedi El around. He provided a form of consol... it's nice to just sit there and vege out while patting Jedi El. He just sits there and lets you pat him.. and occasionally lick my nose =) He is sooo adorable. Stirring up my desire to get a puppy again! But ai yor.. don't think I can afford to =(
It's interesting how different people deal with their emotions. Some get themselves busy by doing lots of things and take their minds off it.. while theirs just stays in that state and "feel" the emotions... I guess I am the first one which irates my sis a bit because she's the latter one =P Oh well!!
Being the do lotsa things type... After the funeral it was back to business (aka uni and work) for me. Back to full time now.. and I am at the last week of uni!!!! It's kinda sad at the same time that I'll be finishing MBA soon but mum won't be able to be here to attend my graduation. But at least she knew that I was within weeks of completing my MBA....
It's Miss Indepdent time now (Sorry Kelly Clarkson, borrowed your line!) for both me and J-san. It's scary because the bond mum + us shared is just indescribable and the fact that she is not here anymore to be our safety net, fashion consultant, teacher and sounding board.. etc But like what Ajahn Bram said at the funeral, even though the physical body is not here with us, their spirit lives on... so we do what we believe our mum would want to see us achieve in life... live well and do good things.. no regrets!
For our friends and family: Thank you all for your love and support..
For mum... missing you already...
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